It's our lives, not his, and our happiness, too. If he wants me to pretend I'm not gay for the rest of my life just so he can have me play pro, that's the most selfish thing since wanting you to deny who you are and what you wanna do to focus only on basketball. I'm not as brave and shit as you, if I had more of a choice about it, you bet I'd have denied it and just not danced so people wouldn't think I'm uncool. But I didn't get the choice, because being gay isn't a choice, it's like being black and it's something that I can't get away from. And anyone who cares for me wouldn't want me to try and do that.
I was a fucking douche to you at first about your dancing and singing and Gabriella, but that was in junior year and it still didn't take me that long to realize what I was trying to do. I love you the way you are, not the way I wish you were. And that's what brothers do and what parents should be doing, too. It's not our fault if they don't manage that, it's theirs. I know it hurts. But we don't have to feel guilty about this.
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Date: 2014-04-16 06:01 am (UTC)I was a fucking douche to you at first about your dancing and singing and Gabriella, but that was in junior year and it still didn't take me that long to realize what I was trying to do. I love you the way you are, not the way I wish you were. And that's what brothers do and what parents should be doing, too. It's not our fault if they don't manage that, it's theirs. I know it hurts. But we don't have to feel guilty about this.